Sometimes I like to surprise my clients. So Kristen, as you are reading this…there is a little surprise here for you. I connected with Jason after your session and he has a little something he would like to say to you and Edris. I hope you enjoy <3
“My Darling Girls,
There was once a day I cared more about tomorrow than anything else. During this time in my life, I imagined tomorrow less painful than today. The pain I felt, the sadness I felt, the longing I felt, would all disappear with today, and be mended by tomorrow.
But tomorrow is ambiguous, it technically doesn’t even exist! It’s definitely not promised… living for something like this was the reason I was so sad:
I was living for nothing.
Soon after, I met you, Kristen, and then we were given you, Edris, and everything changed. I realized that some time ago, I had forgotten about tomorrow and started living for today. I started waking up wondering what today would be like. I wondered if I would get see Kristen today, or was anticipating the date I or she had planned for the other. Then I woke up wondering if today would be the day that God gave us Edris. Then I woke up wondering what milestone today would be! Would Edris roll over, say a word, giggle, crawl, walk, or run?
Then I woke up wondering if our son would still be alive… hoping yesterday didn’t happen. I woke up wondering if today would be the day we’d pick up Peter, then carry him home in his urn. Today became hard, unbearably so. I wished many times for yesterday. Yesterday, Peter was alive. Yesterday, we were whole. Yesterday there was none of this pain or sorrow aching from our bones…
But like tomorrow, yesterday doesn’t exist either. Yesterday is just as unobtainable…reaching back for it was why I was in so much pain. I had to remember to live for today. Together, we held each other up. Together we mourned, we cried, and we remembered. Together, we became stronger then we ever were before! And now, today, I am alive and happy once more.
Today. Today is a beautiful day, and a beautiful thing to live for. Today, I live for you, my darling girls.
Jason and Daddy.”
Jason and Daddy